Ok ya'll...I need to talk to everyone on this board about some shit that has been happening to me personally recently. The reason being, because i consider so many of you such good friends of mine, and even if i havent gotten to know you as much as i want to yet, you can read too, because we'll become friends.

I'm going to speak of just one event, because the rest is so complicated that it might very likely drive me insane. Aside from lots of stuff going on at my home I needed a place to vent... and so i came here.

My friends car was broken into today, while we were inside eating dinner at a nice restaurant (go figure). And it turns out, the only reason they broke into the car was to steal my stuff. So the good thing is that none of his stuff was taken, nor any of the other stuff that was my friends, and his insurance will cover the costs of that. I think they leant on the car next to us and kicked in the window. The only thing in the car that they stole from us, were two of my bags. One of which held every single CD i own. I only brought it out with me this one night because we were gonna have a party after we got out of dinner, and i wanted good music.

What makes me angry, at myself, is that i was so stupid that i didnt put it in the trunk, i didnt bring it in with me... i mean come on, all of this could have been avoided if i had left the one back in the house, and the other one i carried inside with me, like i do most of the time. I put together a list of what they took and im just flabbergasted that so much money could be lost in so little time. They stole $544 worth of music from me... And I know its just material...but I worked my ass off in a job that I fucking hated for a year and a month making a little over minimum wage, and what money i had left over i spent on CDs...thats what i love. I couldnt live without my music..so they take one of the few things in my life that i cherish materialistically. I was devastated. I am so upset right now, im angry, i want the cops to catch them, not so i can get my shit back, but so i can press charges on those sons of bitches!!

Why do nice guys have all this stuff happen to them, why do middle class people who work hard for the good things in life get things stolen from them? Why are they the ones who work so hard, and yet get so little in return? I feel bad, because i know that car wouldnt have gotten broken into if i had not been so stupid, and granted the insurance covers the damage...but i still feel like its my fault. My wallet was in there as well, and thank god it didnt have any credit card or bank card...but it had my social security card in it. Pictures of friends that il never get back, a gift from london from my best friend...Shit in there that i have worked my ass off to pay for, and now some low life punk took it all away in a matter of seconds. I think i have the right to be so angry... And one of the bags wasnt even mine!! Course he isnt mad about it since he doesnt use it, but that makes me look like the unreliable person, and i am NOT unreliable.

I make sure that in this life i help those who need help, I make myself as approachable as i possibly can... I like to think that i am in some manner and form, a nice person...and life is Shitting on me. I questioned life for the first time tonight in over a year, "what do you have planned for me? I want to know what it is that i did in this life to deserve all of this shit that keeps getting thrown at me. I want to know why is life so unfair to those who are good and uphold positive aura's, good deeds. And life rewards the criminals!! The rich get richer and the poor get poorer. There is no justice anymore, all the happy endings i see and hear about are in books and movies, and about people who have better lives than you and I do... But that doesnt happen in real life. I haven't heard of a single fairy tale ending that actually happened. I hear about the hardship and how we should buck up, but I don't see a happy ending."

And this is when I sat back and actually thought about what it was that i was pondering.

I am a small person in this world, I know that. I run a small website, I help were I can in terms of that, and it makes me happy. For all the losses and things that keep on happening to me, I always look to the positive. I almost left my ipod in that bag, and I thought about how it could have been that much worse. I know that life keeps throwing things my way, and yeah sure, it makes me stronger and shit.. but i am a realist at the same time that i think all of this.

And then I remember, that even though some punk ass bitch, stole something from me that meant alot to me, that i have poured so much of my time and enery into...I can get it back. EVen if all this shit keeps on happening to me, I still love life, i still love living. Yes I am angry, yes I am depressed, and yes my life can barely get any worse (and i am not over-exaggerating, many things have happened recently that have begun to change the person i am).......yet somehow... I know im going to take it in stride and move on. I try, I always TRY to look at the wonderful in life, the bright... And on nights like this, its so hard that it hurts. All I could do when I saw the car and my missing things, was fall into my friend Scot's arms and cry and cry. And even now, I can do nothing but cry at all of the injustices in life. But for the sake of so many other people, I will hold myself up, and I will deal with the problems that life wants to chuck at me. Bring it on I say, what more can you do to me that i wont triumph over.

I don't really know what my purpose has been in the grand scheme of things...writting this....but my mind tells me, that even so much in this world is horrible...i want all of you to be able to move on and cope with the difficulties that life presents you with. And while you may feel alone, you are not. You may not know me personally, in real life or otherwise... But there are those who will always hold life up to the light it truly deserves. I at least, will be there for any one person on this website who needs to talk...vent....or someone to relate to, cuz hon, its happening right now... Just maybe not to you. You dont even have to agree with me, i just want you to read...and understand. Someone, please understand this about me, if you know nothing else about me or my beliefs. Simply read, if nothing else, and maybe you'll come to understand what it is that i am feeling every single day of my life.

*snuggles to pieces* That majorly sucks. I'd offer to send you some songs from whatever was stolen, but I doubt I'd have them. :P I'm glad you decided to still try to look at the good, though, way too many people get into a bad mood and stay that way for a very long time. Don't try to be strong for the rest of the world, though, try to be strong for you. That's what's important. The rest of the world can care for itself, it's managed...sort of...thus far. You're an amazing person, and we love you, you came to the right place to vent. If you ever need to talk one on one, I'm right here waiting (and that goes for anyone else on here as well). *hugs*

Oh, and Zekieal says hi and he misses you. :)

Well, I know that whatever I say won't make you feel good as new, and I can't say I understand, because I wouldn't and I'd be lying. But I can say that what I know of you has made you a good person in my mind. Life is unfair. Bad things happen to good people and vice versa. And Mother was right when she said that you should be strong for yourself and not for the world. The rest of the world can just take care of itself. You just worry about yourself. And always know that you have a whole lot of people who love you and care about you and want you to have the best life that you can possibly have. :hug

man..girl...whatever...:P were Texans were tough...but you got it right. Dont let them take you down. Keep your spirits up n your gun loaded.

I won't even try to write an encouraging and understanding speech here, I would love to but I know it would suck. So I just want you to know that I read and understood. Life sucks.

I honestly hope I comforted you by saying I wish I could snuggle you. I too believe you are a wonderful person who does not deserve anything like this. Don't give up on life just yet. You have friends who will support you, and even though it's shit you're going through right now, I'm sure things will get better for you. *snuggles*

for those of you who are curious, here are the pictures of the incident. Curtesy of le Camera de Laridian.


everything is untouched, as it was when we found it.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v200/xXt...CarBreakin1.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v200/xXt...Carbreakin2.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v200/xXt...Carbreakin3.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v200/xXt...carbreakin4.jpg if you'll notice, they didnt take anything else

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v200/xXt...carbreakin8.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v200/xXt...arbreakin10.jpg this last one is how they got in. If you notice the butt marks in the dirt, they propped themselves up and kicked in the window.

I am not the kind of person who gives good advice, whatever, but what I can give you is this: :hug x1000

wow. I'm not good at writing inspiring words of wisdom, or good advice, but I am so sorry this happened to you. It really does stink the way junk like that happens to the good people of the world. But like others have already said, just don't let it keep you down. *gives big huggles*

I know I don't know you very well, but I'm sorry that that happened to you. There really isn't anything a person can say that makes it better, but we like to try :)

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I'd like to say something to make you feel better but I'm not sure there is anything i could say. I can say though, that i know how you feel. I've had time where it's seemed like life just sucked. (Thats when i started RP, when i decided RL sucks)
But It'll get better. And if you think it cant get any worse, then it will have to get better, there's no other way for it to go.

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Rialt, I'm so sorry this happened. It bites. Majorly. You certainly are welcome to vent here, as is anyone else. We are a community, though we focus on RPing a lot.

As for bad things happening to good people, yes, it sucks. I completely understand, though my life is hardly as hard as it could be, for which I'm thankful. But maybe it's partly because when bad things happen to bad people, they can't handle it. The good people can look at life, find all the good things, and keep moving on. At least most of the time.

:hug Keep being strong. Thank you for being strong for all of us. Thank you for being strong for everyone. You are awesome.