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CHAPTER 1.

It is September 2005. Nikki is laying naked in bed next to Helen, still hungover as she has just celebrated her 40th birthday with a huge bash at The Kings Arms, Whitechapel High Road, East London the night before.

"Morning sexy" says Nikki.
"Morning lovely" replies Helen.

They kiss

"Hows it feel being 40 now Nikki?"
"Great" she replied "the Big 40 now and have never snogged a man, only women".

Helen gives Nikki a funny look then laughs. [I]

"Just be glad you are with me and have been out of Larkhall for 5 years" said Helen.
"I heard Fenner died in July? Apparently he was killed by one of the two Julies, at least I hope that is true?" said Nikki in glee.
"Yes" replied Helen. "He was a psycho but was still a human being Nikki".
"Get real Helen. He was a bastard. He hated me and called me a dyke and called me by my surname rather than my firstname. I hated Dockley but am glad she stabbed him in the gut with that broken wine glass" said Nikki sternly.
"I'll go and make breakfast" replied Helen.

As Helen gets out of bed, Nikki snuggles back down in bed and closes her eyes. Within minutes she is asleep again. She starts having dreams about her time in Larkhall.

She gets an image of Fenner calling her a dyke. She then gets an image of attacking Dockley in the canteen. Then she gets an image of Bodybag falling down the stairs, and then she gets an image of stabbing herself with the garden fork in which she suddenly wakes up gasping, thinking that she has killed someone again. She realises it is just a dream and gets out of bed and starts to get dressed.

"Nikki!!!" calls Helen from the landing "Do you want tea or coffee?"
"Coffee please Helen" replied Nikki.

Once dressed, Nikki goes into the kitchen and her and Helen embrace while the kettle is boiling.

"I wonder how Bodybag is doing, the old witch" said Nikki.
"I wouldnt know Nikki. You must know by now that when I left Larkhall I lost all my connections with that place. I only heard about Jim Fenner through the newspaper". said Helen.
"I know but I am just wondering" said Nikki.
"Nikki. Please stop talking about Larkhall. It is not nice to be reminded. Its as if you want to go back there" said Helen.
"Do I hell?" said Nikki. "Ok you win, lets forget Larkhall. But there is one thing that I wont forget in a hurry"
"Whats that?" said Helen.
"I want to try and get back in touch with my mum and dad now Helen"
"Do you?" replied Helen "I thought they threw you out when you were 16 due to your non hetrosexual activities?"
"Yes, but that was nearly 24 years ago in January 1982. I want to see if they will accept me into their lives again after all these years" said Nikki.
"This is all a bit sudden Nikki. Why start now?" said Helen
"Simple really, because they are my parents and I still love them and deep down I know they still love me as well, and if I do, I might want to spend quite some time with them again if they do accept me into their lives again. Nearly 24 years of catching up to do. Fingers crossed" smiled Nikki.

Helen looks on unsure, thinking it might affect their relationship.

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hope not to wait to long for a others chapter its a really good start .

:D Welcome and thanks for the great start!!

Excellent start! I can't wait for more!!

More please!!! :drinkies :drinkies

CHAPTER 2.

TWO DAYS LATER

Nikki is on her computer trying to find her father on the online electoral registers. His name is Sidney Wade. She sees a likely candidate for her father as she recognises his middle initial D, for Douglas. She clicks into the entry and then takes a note of the address.

Helen walks in with two teas.

"Helen. I might have found my father on the electoral registers" said Nikki
"Thats good" said Helen with a bit of hesitation. "Nikki you had best write to him first and if you dont get a reply, then ring him. But are you sure you want to do this babes?"
"Very sure. I havent spoken to my parents and brother for nearly 24 years. It is time to see if they will accept me back into their lives again". said Nikki.
"How do you know that is your father you found? Wade is not exactly a rare name is it? Its not Smith or Tylor but it is quite common". said Helen.
"It is him, my dad is called Sidney Douglas Wade, and I found a Sidney D Wade on the electoral rolls in Chelmsford, Essex, which is where I was actually born and bred" said Nikki. "It has to be him".
"Are you sure your dad may still be in Chelmsford and there arent two Sidney Douglas Wade's around, and your dad might not have put his middle initial on the register?" said Helen.
"Dear God!!" snapped Nikki "Why are you so negative about this all?? I am trying to find my parents and you arent exactly being supportive are you?"
"I worry in case you might get back with them and I will be left in the lurch Nikki" snapped Helen back to Nikki.
"Oh I see, this is what this is all about isnt it Miss Stewart? You are just jealous because I want a happy family reunion again? said Nikki.
"Nikki why would you think I am jealous?"
"Will you please stop saying my firstname every 3rd word? Its always Nikki, Nikki and Nikki. Admit it you are jealous arent you?"
"How can you say that? We have been together for 5 years and known each other for 6 and a half years. I gave up being hetro for you Nikki".
"Is this revenge for my jealousy over Sean and Thomas?" said Nikki.
"I didnt love Sean" said Helen "Nor did I love Thomas. I love you in the end. I gave up Sean then Thomas for you darling" said Helen.
"Sorry Helen but I cant help but detect a hint of jealousy"
"I am so sick of you Nikki. Fine! If you want to get back with your mum and dad, do it, but dont expect any support from me, and dont expect me to mingle with them". shouted Helen.

Helen storms off towards the front door of their apartment.

"Helen I am sorry OK. Helen. Come back!!" Nikki, with a plea.

Helen slams the door shut.

"Grrrrrrrrrrr. Jesus. Bastarrrrdddssssss!!!!!" shouted Nikki, letting off steam.

Nikki goes to a drawer and gets an envelope out and a piece of paper to write to her parents. She starts writing. She decides that to gain better chances of acceptance by her parents, she keeps her prison conviction quiet, unless they already know from the newspaper or TV reports at the time of the trial in Nov 1996.

She spends the next half hour honing her letter to perfection. After she has completed it, she reads it to herself. It says:-

Dear Mr Wade.

I am Miss Nicola Wade, aged 40. Sorry to sound stalker like but I looked you up on the electoral registers as you have the same frstname and middle initial as my father. Also the area is the same. If you are my father, then would you consider an acceptance from me back into your lives? Dont hold grudges please as I cant help being a lesbian, or a "dyke" as some people call me. I am living in London and am working as a book publisher from home. I have made several thousands from my first literature book, and am penning my second. I am in a relationship with a Scottish lady called Helen Stewart. She works as a supermarket manager now but has worked in the prison service. Tears are welling in my eyes as I am writing this but I have had enough bastard mess in my life and feel I need to reunite with you and mum and my elder brother David.

If you are my parents, please consider my proposal. I have enclosed my current address.

All my Love

Nicola Wade.

Nikki puts the letter in the envelope and gets up to post it.

LATER THAT NIGHT.

Helen comes home with a box of chocolates and flowers for Nikki. Nikki is sitting on the settee eating a shepherds pie.

"Nikki. If you will accept here is a peace offering". said Helen.

Nikki jumps up off the sofa and hugs Helen tightly.

"No I am sorry for overreacting. But I do think it is worth trying to make contact with my family again" replied Nikki.
"Yes, I am OK with it Nikki. I was just worried that I'd lose you"
"That will not happen. I wont be in constant contact with them as they live in Essex, but maybe a family visit once every few months, and they might really like you babes" said Nikki.
"I hope so Nikki. Come on, lets continue this peace offering in the bedroom" said Helen.
"Oooohhhh, you are such a charmer" replied Nikki. "But after I have finished my shepherds pie".

Helen laughs. once Nikki finishes her dinner and puts her dirty cutlery and plate in the dishwasher, her and Helen hold hands and walk into their master bedroom, closing the door behind them.

Great first couple of chapters :) Can't wait for more :D Thanks again

Love it, more please. :silly :silly

Preview of the next few chapters:-

Nikki heals the rift with her parents, and once she does, she makes a startling confession to Helen about something that she did in her time in Larkhall prison, that if she'd have admitted it at the time or was found out or told on, her appeal would have been quashed instantly and she'd still be in Larkhall. [B]

CHAPTER 3

It has been a week since Nikki posted her letter.

Nikki is sitting at the kitchen table reading another George Eliot literature book. She turns round in her chair and looks down the hallway and looks at the letterbox. She nervously turns away and carries on reading. She chuckles at a funny line in the book. Helen walks in with her dressing gown on and gets a glass of water.

"Morning love. Any post yet?" said Helen
"None yet" replied a nervous Nikki "Its been 7 days now and I still havent heard anything. The bastard sorting office in Mount Pleasant must be on strike or something". growled Nikki.
"They are probably still deciding if they want to see you again. Dont raise your hopes" said Helen.

Once again, Nikki accuses Helen of being jealous.

"Again there you go Helen. Being over negative about all this lark. I keep telling you this will not affect our bastard relationship" snapped Nikki.
"Dont speak to me like that Nikki. I am just being realistic if you must know". snapped Helen back to Nikki.
"Sorry Helen. I am just nervous waiting for a reply" said Nikki.
"I know you are darling" They kiss. "They will get back to you soon I am sure". replied Helen.


The post arrives. Two letters pop through the letterbox. Nikki gets up and picks them up. One is from the Halifax to Helen and the other one is addressed to Nikki. The address on the front is handwritten and the postmark says it came from Chelmsford. Nikki exhales a deep and nervous breath. She goes into the lounge and sits down on the settee, her hands trembling as she opens the letter. Never before have we seen our Nikki look so nervous, not even back in Larkhall.

"I know it is from my parents" said Nikki to herself.

She opens it and reads it. After 20 seconds she shouts "Yes!!!" at the top of her voice. The letter was written by her dad and he has left his address and mobile number for her to contact him. In the letter he said that he doesnt want the huge hugs and to throw a party but he wouldnt mind maybe meeting up the following Saturday for a talk, and to try and work things out. Helen smiles to herself in the kitchen. She knows it is good news and it proves she has realised that it will not ruin hers and Nikki's relationship. She walks into the lounge.

"Whats it say?" said Helen.
"It says that my dad wants us to maybe meet up for a coffee on Saturday and just talk things over. That is a first step though". said Nikki.
"Great. I am really pleased for you" said Helen.
"I cant believe it now. After 24 years, they might accept me into their lives again. The letter says that Mum is now retired but even at 68, dad is still working as a golf pro, even with his Navy Pension. I am excited" said Nikki.
"Wow. That is great news" said Helen.
"I know. Now that I am an author, I might be able to share my earnings with them as well as us two. He has left his address and mobile number". said Nikki.
"I am happy for you Nikki, and for us" said Helen.
"I am glad you saw sense. I think you were just scared at first" said Nikki.
"I was" said Helen "Scared of losing you, the only thing in my life that ever means anything. If I went with Thomas, that would never have been fair on you, as I'd rather be a dyke than a ditch" laughs Helen.

Nikki laughs with Helen at her joke.

Anyway I had better get dressed and get off to work now". said Helen.
"Ok sweetie pie" said Nikki.

They kiss and embrace. Helen walks off into the bedroom. Nikki is over the moon. Its as if she has won £7 million on the Lottery.

Oh, God!!!

What did Nikki do, I'm so scared to find out!!!

Was it something on screen or even something we didn't know about.

Also, nothing personal but why is Helen working in a Supermarket.

Wouldn't it have been cooler if she admitted to Nikki that she is in reality a licensed lawyer but specialized in litigation but couldn't use it while at Larkhall.

Helen had a change of career from working in the prison service to being a supermarket manager.

A clue is, it is something that Nikki did whilst in Larkhall, or at least it might appear that she might have done. I will say no more. I will reveal this storyline in this chapter, but Chapter 5.

CHAPTER 4

Nikki is waiting at Liverpool Street Station with Helen. She looks nervous. Helen hugs her and reassures her.

"Let me know how you get on. Text me or ring me" said Helen.
"Thanks sweetie. Its been 24 years. I cannot believe I am going to see my parents again". replied Nikki.
"I wish I still had my mother to talk to" said Helen.

They embrace. Nikki looks at the timetable on the screens on the walls and sees that her train is about to depart in 2 minutes.

" Wish me luck Helen"

Nikki runs towards the platform.

40 MINUTES LATER.

Nikki has just got off the train at Chelmsford. She looks around the platform for her dad, to see if she can recognise him after all this time. They had arranged to meet at the platform.

A man is standing by the ticket office with grey hair and a moustache. Nikki recognises his from the scar he has under his left eye, once caused by Nikki's brother David while they were building a garage together once. Nikki walks up to him then stops about 4 foot away from him.

"Dad??" said Nikki, in a mild voice.
"Nicola. Oh my God". said Sidney

They cuddle.

"It has been 24 years." said Nikki.
"I know it has. You look as young as you did in 1982".
"Dad I have just turned 40. I have a few more grey hairs and wrinkles" said Nikki.
"Yes bt you still look good for 40. I am only 1 year and 5 months away from turning 70." replied Sidney
"You still have to be 69 first dad" said Nikki.
"I was thinking about finding you as well. I told your mum but she isnt so convinced" said Sidney
"She cannt accept that I am a dyke. I cant help who I am" replied Nikki.
"I know you cant. Come on, there is a nice coffee bar in the high street. Lets go there shall we?". said Sidney.

CAFE BAR IN CHELMSFORD HIGH STREET.

"We'll just have a coffee here then we shall take you home to see your mother" said Sidney.
"Are you still living at the same house" said Nikki.
"No, we have moved a few streets away. Anyway, what have you been doing these last few years?" said Sidney

Nikki has to watch what she says in case she lets slip or hints thatshe has done porridge for murdering a police officer. She also worries that her parents know but they arent letting on that they know.

"I used to run a business once I finally settled in London after travelling the world. I moved to London when I was 20. I ran a hiring and firing business. It was not too bad. I have been working for the poast few years in publishing". said Nikki.
"I know. I saw your book on the shelves in WH Smith. I looked at the paragraph about Nicola Wade, the author and when it said that she was born in Essex in 1965, I wondered if it was our Nicola" said Sidney.
"Why didnt you try and make contact with me then? Bastard" snapped Nikki.
"Nicola, you are not too old for a clip round the ear. I had to give plenty of them in the Royal Navy. using that word always got you into trouble at school" said Sidney.
"Sorry. I am still shocked that you have accepted me back into your lives again" said Nikki.
"I have anyway. Your mother wants to see you but I do not know yet if she will want you to be part of our lives again Nicola" said Sidney.
"Hows David?" replied Nikki.
"He has moved to Norwich. Working at Norwich Union" said Sidney.
"Wow. I have always thought about moving to Norfolk. I think I visited Norwich once on a school trip years ago" said Nikki.
"They have a famous prison there that used to be an Army Barracks" said Sidney.

Nikki looks on worried that her dad is hinting he knows about her conviction.

"You remember how you get your dark hair and exotic looks from dont you Nicola" said Sidney.
"Dad millions of people in England have dark hair" replied Nikki.
"Yes but your mums maiden name is Zanotti. It is from your mum's Italian grandfather Gaetano Zanotti who came to England from Italy in about 1900 ish." said Sidney
"Yes, mum told me that he moved to Chelmsford and ran an Italian bakery but I thought he was born in England to Italian parents" said Nikki.
"No, he was Italian" said Sidney.
"Dad, I have come here to bury the hatchet with you and mum, not come here to research my bastard coat of arms". replied Nikki.
"Nicola!!!" said Sidney, sternly.
"I know where I get my temper from then? My Italian heritage. Senioress Nicoletta Wade (laughs)" laughs Nicola.
"Come on Nikki, drink up. I'll take you to see your mother". said Sidney.
"Great, if she wants me". said Nikki.
"She will come round if she doesnt love. Just give her time. I have been married to her long enough" said Sidney.
"Wonderful. Life is a bitch" replied Nikki.
"Watch it Nicola Wade". said Sidney.

Can't wait for the next chapter!

great updates!!

Thanks for the great updates :) Can't wait for the next one.

great update

More please. :girlygiggle :girlygiggle

WADE FAMILY HOME.

Sidney and Nikki walk in through the front door. Nikki's mother Helena Wade is cooking dinner. Nikki spots that she has 3 plates out. Nikki and her dad walk into the kitchen.

"Nikki. Oh my God" said Helena.
"Mum?" replied Nikki.

Nikki goes to cuddle her but Helena backs away a bit.

"Helen" said Sidney.
"I need time to adjust. If you think I am going to let you walk back into our lives as quick as a flash Nicola after all this time, then you have another thing coming" said Helena.
"Why have you got 3 plates out for dinner then? Is it for the Invisible Man??" sneered Nikki.
"You havent lost your sarcastic tongue have you girlie?" said Helena.
"She has agreed to cook dinner for you as well Nikki" said Sidney.
"What is in it? Beef stew, dumplings and arsenic gravy?" replied Nikki.
"Nicola if you say one more comment, you will be asked to leave" said Helena.
"Helena, please? Give her a chance".
"Actually Nikki, I never said that I didnt want you back in our lives, just we need to take it slowly" said Helena.
"It has taken you all these years to accept that I am a lesbian" said Nikki.
"I am amking a liver and bacon casserole. Fancy it" said Helena.
"Thanks Mum. I dont expect you to welcome me back with open arms but a little bit more of a greeting wouldnt go amiss. I am your daughter after all. I am happy with the fact that I like women. Dad has accepted me back" said Nikki.
"Sit down here at the dinner table Nikki. So have you got a lover at the minute?" said Helena.

Sidney takes off his coat and goes to sit in the lounge. Nikki and Helena are now sat at the plush dinner table.

"Believe it or not Mum, she has the same firstname as you, just without the a on the end. She is Helen. Helen Stewart and is Scottish. We are living together in London. She used to be a prison governor in Larkhall but now she is a supermarket manager" said Nikki.

Nikki suddenly grits her teeth, having nearly let slip about her prison conviction.

"Nikki whats wrong" said Helena.
"Oh nothing Mum. I err..met her after she left Larkhall and was working at Leytonstone prison. She lived near me in Whitechapel" said Nikki.
"Why choose London to live? I know it is lively but it is crowded, noisy and busy?" said Helena.
"I see you still care about me Mum?" replied Nikki.
"I think that the past 24 years has given me and your dad time to maybe think that Nikki cannot help who she is. If you want to be a dy...lesbian, then so be it. But, I am not yet ready to throw a huge party and roll out the red carpet to you next" said Helena.
"Mum, you have told me that 3 times now. I have got a brain. (laughs). I understand." said Nikki.
"I better check the potatoes" said Helena.

Meanwhile, Sidney is sitting in the lounge watching TV. He then reaches for the nearby dresser and pulls out the newspaper cutting from November 1996 about Nikki's conviction. He knows about it and that is why he has been hinting. He has not yet let on that he does know. But how will he react?

AN HOUR LATER.

Sidney, Helena and Nikki are finishing their casserole. Nikki has a smile on her face. She has enjoyed the meal.

"Well this has been nice. Chatting and catching up over dinner. This is one of the best meals I have had for ages?" said Nikki.
"Bet you wouldnt like prison food would you darling?" said Helena.
"No, why do you ask that" replied Nikki.

Nikki starts biting her top lip in worry about the hint.

"Nikki, we have got something for you. Its in the lounge. I shall go and get it" said Sidney.

Sidney exits the room. He comes back with one hand behind his back.

"Suprise, suprise" said Sidney.

He hands Nikki the newspaper cutting about her original trial for murder in Nov 1996.

"Umm, err." uttered a speechless Nikki.
"Now you know why myself and your mother have been hinting about prison? We have known all along Nicola. It was in the nationals. You must have thought we knew?" said Sidney.
"I also saw in 2000 when you got released after your conviction was reduced to manslaughter after 3 and a half years Nikki" said Helena.
"Helena, she was provoked according to the appeal" replied Sidney.
"Yes, I watched the news on TV and in your after release interview, you mentioned about male screws in female prisons. Typical murderous dyke. Also you said one woman helped you through prison when others would run a mile. Is that woman your lesbian lover Nicola?" said Helena.
"You bastard" said Nikki to her dad.
"Nicola. I knew, but was waiting for the right time to tell you that we knew. I am not angry with you. Being an ex Navy officer, I hate the police and was angry with you but quite glad that you stuck a bottle in this DS Gossard's neck. Its the armed force that are the real discipliners in this world. We wouldnt have won the war if it wasnt for the Army, RAF or Navy darling" said Sidney.
"A lesbian and a murderer. How nice our daughter has become Sid?" replied Helena.
"I'm not listening to this. I am going" snapped Nikki.

She gets up and puts her plate in the dishwasher.

"Nikki. Stay. Your mum is upset." said Sidney.
"Nicola, please leave now. I will call you later in the week. I need time to think" said Helena. "Dont raise your hopes though. Your dad is all sweetness but I am not as soft".
"If you knew, why did you let me have dinner with you Mum? Trying to build my hopes then knock me down again?" snarled Nikki.

Nikki gets her handbag and coat.

"Nikki, ring me tomorrow night on my mobile?" said Sidney.
"See you later dad. And Mum I suppose"

Nikki cuddles her dad then she walks to the front door, exits and closes the door behind her.

THE NEXT MORNING.

Nikki is laying in bed. She is in deep thought. It is Sunday morning and Helen cuddles up to Nikki.

"Where were you last night? You didnt get home until about 2 in the morning? I heard you come in and get undressed na dinto bed but I fell back asleep again" said Helen
"I went to a bar in Chelmsford. I didnt get drunk but I did have a few G&Ts. I caught the last train back to Liverpool Street and then walked back home. Bit risky, wandering this area of London, the streets of Jack The Ripper Land at night but needed time to think. Turns out my mum and dad knew about my conviction all along but didnt let on that they knew until after we had dinner" said Nikki.
"Oh my god Nikki" replied Helen.

Nikki gets out of bed and puts her dressing gown on.

"I wish I never contacted them now. My dad was understanding but Mum then asked me to leave, but she said she'd call me later in the week" said Nikki.
"I reckon you should not reply to her. It is not worth it" said Helen.
"Why. Those bastard threw me out when I was 16, and now I have just got back on speaking terms, you think I should throw it all away again? I am not letting this lie until my mum decides to let bygones be bygones" shouted Nikki.
"I know, but how do you expect her to feel, that her only daughter was once in jail?" shouted Helen back.
"I dont know. They have had 9 years to come to terms with that fact and 24 to accept that I am a dyke. My mum nearly said that word last night as well. That is why I should really be back in Larkhall, and would still be there if I had been found out!!!" snapped Nikki.
"Oh God!!" added Nikki.
"What do you mean" said Helen.
"Forget it, I was joking. Ha. Ha" said Nikki.
"No what did you mean that you still should be there, if you had been found out?"
"Nothing" said Nikki.
"Tell me" replied Helen.
"It is because I pushed Bodybag Hollamby down the stairs at Larkhall once. I made out I was stopping her from falling by saying "Careful" but I actually shoved her. That is why. She got away with that sprained neck and had to wear that stupid neck support for a few days afterwards. Happy Now!!!" shouted Nikki.

Helen looks on in shock and disbelief at Nikki's heat of the moment confession.

To be continued..................

Why does nikki shout at helen most of the time?? Poor helen.
great update

She didn't do it, it was Yvonne. I watched that scene over and over again, and Nikki may have hated Bodybag, but she didn't do it.

Also, in it's own way if she did, it would be a payback. Remember guys, when Nikki got sent down the block and one of the Screws, a husky lady punched poor Nikki in the stomach.

Great update! Thanks :)

Uh oh...not looking good for Nikki. Helen is not gonna let that slide.

Atkins may have made the first push I agree, but having watched it, it was definately Nikki who pushed her hard enough to fall down the stairs. Atkins did push her but I dont think she pushed her hard enough. I think she pushed first then a second later Nikki pushed her and Nikki's push was hard enough for BodyBag to fall dwon the stairs. That is why I have including this in my fiction.

I know Nikki shouts at Helen, but in the real BG, Nikki and Helen were often arguing, making then breaking up and disagreeing. So I am really following the real BG in terms of Helen and Nikki's relationship.

Anyway Chapter 5..........Helen doesn't know what to do after Nikki's confession. Plus the return of a classic BG character to come in Chapter 6. It is not Atkins, as she is dead. You should know halfway thrugh this chapter.

CONTINUED FROM LAST SENTENCE. THEIR BEDROOM.

Helen is laying in bed, startled at Nikki's confession. She doesnt know what to say. Nikki stares at her. She wishes the ground would swallow her up.

"You pushed Bodybag....No. I cant believe that Nikki" muttered Helen.
"I was the one who actually pushed her down the stairs. Yvonne Atkins played a part but it was me who pushed her hard enough for her to fall. That is why I should still be banged up in Larkhall. Lucky Bodybag survived with just a fractured neck" said Nikki.
"No....I cant believe it Nikki." said Helen.
"I cant either. Atkins gave her a shove at first but a second later, I shoved her as well and it was hard enough for her to fall down the metal stairs. If it had just been Atkins, she'd probably not even tripped and kept her balance. We both played a part, but it was me that shoved her hard enough to fall down. I could have killed her." said Nikki.
"Oh my God" uttered Helen.
"Atkins cant give her side can she, because she is dead. She was locked in the disused prison cellar by that bastard Fenner and left to die there. She cant either defend her name nor tell about how she pushed her first but if she was here, she'd say it was me that pushed her hard enough for her to take a topple. You know what? I'd not deny it either. Do you believe me now Helen?" said Nikki.

Helen gets out of bed and quickly puts on her dressing gown. She walks up to Nikki.

"You?? Alright then. Why did you do it?" said Helen.
"It was Atkins idea because Bodybag had upset one of the two Julies and she thought of an idea to pay her back" said Nikki.
"Oh God. It is true. I do know that she fell but I always thought she tripped as she was trying to get you back to your cells" said Helen.
"You are clever Helen, at least I thought. Why didnt you suspect that foul play might have been involved?" replied Nikki.
"I was away at the time, so I couldnt comment. I admit I did have my wee suspicions but I kept it to myself though. I couldnt suggest that without proof off someone who was there" said Helen.
"That was noble of you Helen. That proves I am not making this up. Why would I say that if it wasnt true?" said Nikki.
"I know it's true. You killed a copper then in prison you tried to bump off a screw, even a bitch like her. Once a murderess, always a murderess Nikki hey" said Helen.
"It wasnt a screw actually. It was a nail" laughs Nikki in sarcasm.
"You confess something as serious as this then make a joke about it do you? You are more warped than I thought Nikki" said Helen.
"Helen. Please. It was 6 years ago. Summer of 1999. Atkins is not alive to land me in it, and the other inmates who were at the top of the stairs on the walkway probably wont remember much as it happened all too fast" said Nikki.
"She still works there I heard. I dont like her but I did bump into her in Selfridges in Oxford Street a few weeks ago. Just a brief chat. She is only a couple of years from retirement. I heard she married the prison doc Malcolm Nicholson but he got shot in a hotel in the Med a few months back. Maybe I should tell her about this now. That will really shock her?" said Helen. "She might remember it she felt one or two pushes to her back" added Helen.

Nikki looks frightened now. She bites her bottom lip in worry.

"You have really blown it this time Nikki. Big time. It doesnt matter how long ago you did it, the fact is you still did it." said Helen.
"It was Atkins's idea. And I only pushed her after Atkins did because she pushed her first" said Nikki.
"Oh, so you always copy others then. If someone told you to jump off a cliff, would you do it?" replied Helen.
"Please Helen. I love you. Since I left Larkhall I have been straight as a dice. I am now repairing the rift between my parents and I want us two to have our relationship blessed" said Nikki.
"As far as I know you appear to have gone straight. How many more skeletons do you have in your cupboard? I will go back to work tomorrow not knowing what to do over this whole situation. Lucky I dont work there anymore but all it will take is one phonecall to the prison, then I can arrange to meet Mrs Hollamby-Nicholson in person. I bet she will be very pleased to hear about your confession" said Helen.

Helen walks out of the bedroom and off towards the bathroom. Nikki breaks down in tears. Her main concern is will Helen let this slide or will she have another lawsuit slapped on her.

TBC.............

Even though I know there is noooo way Helen can turn Nikki in, you're still starting to make me really nervous.

Great update!

i agree with jane22 there,i don't think helen will do it.
great update

Great update, I hope Helen don't turn Nikki in either :)

Great update. :dazzler :dazzler

Does Helen turn Nikki in? Read the first few paragraphs and get even more nervous as Helen rings Larkhall. But will she blow the whistle?

We also get a brief few lines from another BG character who was in the last few series.

CHAPTER 5

SUNDAY EVENING.

Helen in sitting in The Blind Beggar pub on Whitechapel Road. She is drinking a G&T. She keeps gazing across to the payphone on the wall. Nikki is back at the apartment in the lounge, sitting on the settee biting her fingernails. Helen has been out for a few hours now. Nikki fears that a policeman will knock on her door any second. Back in the pub, an old Jewish man, Abraham Lazarus has joined Helen at the bar. He sits next to her. Helen sighs.

"I have seen you in here a few times with your friend, the one with the dark hair?" said Abraham.
"What is it to you anyway? I have not spoken to you before" said Helen.
"I often come into this pub darling. Did you this area of London was well inhabited by Polish and Russian Jews in the 1880s and 1890s. I am local but all my grandparents were Jewish immigrants from Poland. This is the pub that Ronnie Kray shot that bloke in as well" said Abraham.

Helen is getting very annoyed.

"Listen mate. Do yourself a favour and go back to your Rabbi and synagogue. I came in here for a quiet drink, not to have a history lesson" replied Helen.
"Sorry. Just being friendly" said Abraham.

Helen downs her drink and walks off towards the payphone. She picks the reciever up, dials Larkhall's number then puts 50p in the slot. Joyce Masterton, Wing Governor, answers the phone.

"Hello, Larkhall Prison" said Joyce.
"Hi, I am Helen Stewart. I used to work as Wing Governor at Larkhall from 1999 to 2000. I then worked helping lifers in any appeals against their sentences. Can I speak to Sylvia Nicholson please. She used to be Sylvia Hollamby" said Helen.
"Why are you enquiring" replied Joyce.
"I wanted to ask her something thats all" said Helen.
"I'll see if I can get her for you. Hang on" said Jayce.

Helen waits. After a minute, Bodybag answers.

"Hello Helen. Long time no speak. What brings you to call us again. We havent heard from you since you left just over 4 years ago after Wade's appeal" said Bodybag.
"Hi Bod...Mrs Nicholson. As you remember I was Wing Governor here once" said Helen.
"How can I forget. You are the only person in the history of the prison service who changed her sexuality from hetro to lesbian with a convicted cop killer." said Bodybag.

Helen shuts her eyes. She feels like hanging up but doesnt.

"Sylvia. Can I meet up with you tomorrow evening. I leave off work at 5pm. I live in Whitechapel but will be able to meet you underneath the clock at Waterloo Station at say 6pm. I have something really important to tell you" said Helen.
"Oh yes, have you gone straight again?" replied Bodybag.
"Mrs Nicholson, please stop with the comments. I know you are still grieving after Malcolms death but please dont take it out on me. I have something really important to tell you. You must hear it" said Helen.
"Cant you tell me over the phone?" said Bodybag.
"No, I need to meet you away from the prison. It is about when you had that accident about 6 years ago when you fell down the stairs at Larkhall when Nikki and Yvonne Atkins were at the top of the stairs. Look I must go now. Someone is waiting to use the phone" said Helen.
"Really? But that was a long time ago and I just slipped, well at least I am sure I slipped" said Bodybag.
"Wait until tomorrow Mrs Nicholson. I have to go now. Meet me at 6pm underneath the clock nearest the southern entrance to Waterloo Station tomorrow. I will tell you everything then" said Helen.

Helen puts the reciever down to hang up. She then lifts it up again and hands it to the man waiting to use the phone.

"Thanks" said the waiting man.

Helen then leaves the pub. Meanwhile back at the apartment Nikki gets a call on her mobile. She answers it. It is her mum.

"Hi Mum. I am glad you called me" said Nikki.
"Yes, I will keep this short. I have come round. I would like to be back on speaking terms with you again. Your dad is more than for it, and that has made me realise that you are still our daughter" said Helena.
"Wow. Great" replied Nikki.
"Yes, I know you killed someone but I guess you were just sticking up for this Trisha girl. I'd probably do the same if someone was raping my sister or best friend. We have known about this since your original trial, but I also followed your appeal and the sentence reduced to manslaughter" said Helena.
"I am pleased Mum. I really am" said Nikki.
"Come and visit us any time, but not just yet though. Give it a couple more weeks. I will probably feel better about it by then" said Helena.
"Man that is great. Thanks" said Nikki.

Helen walks through the door.

"I have to go now Mum, Helen has just arrived. I'll ring you in the week." said Nikki.
"OK then. Bye" replied Helena.

Nikki puts the reciever down.

"That was my Mum. She is willing to give it a go at repairing the family rift" said Nikki.
"Does she know Parkhurst's address then? If she does, does she know how to put files in cakes" said Helen.
"Helen, please tell me you havent told anyone. Please. It was 6 years ago. All she suffered was a fractured neck" pleaded Nikki.
"You could have injured her or even worse still, you could have broken her neck" said Helen.
"Yes but she didnt. I didnt mean it. It was Atkins idea. I love you Helen. Are you going to grass up your lover for something that happened several years ago?. I love you Helen. If you grass me up, you will lose me and you will be alone again" said Nikki.
"Better than being with a callous psycho" replied Helen.
"How can you say that? You love me, I know you do. You wouldnt have the bottle to put the squeeze on me" said Nikki.
"Get the sleeping bag out of the airing cupboard. You are of the sofa tonight Nikki. You have ruined my Sunday. I am going to bed now as I am tired and have to be up for work tomorrow, but before I do, I am meeting Bodybag tomorrow at 6pm after work in Waterloo Station" said Helen.

Helen walks off towards the bedroom. She shuts the door behind her and locks it from the indise so that Nikki cannot get in. Nikki bangs on the door.

"Helen!! Helen!! Please!!" caleed Nikki through the door.

Nikki walks back into the lounge and sits down on the settee. She starts crying.

THE FOLLOWING MORNING.

Nikki is asleep on the sofa in the sleeping bag. Helen has just got dressed, washed and ready for work. She looks at Nikki laying on the sofa. She shakes her head and picks up her handbag. As she leaves, she shuts the front door which wakes Nikki up.

"Helen!" said Nikki.

Helen walks through the landing outside the apartment to the lifts. The apartment block is quite a nice looking block actually, well why wouldntit be as Helen and Nikki are middles class. Helen enters the lift and pushes the ground floor button. Back in the flat, Nikki frantically gets dressed ready to go after Helen. Helen gets to the ground floor and exits the building through the doors. As she is walking across the front car park, she comes face to face with two dirty looking hoodies in jeans, with tattoos on their arms. They block her way and give her a threatening look.

"Hello darling. How are ya gal?" said one of the chavs in a rough voice.

To be continued. Will Nikki save the day?

Oh puleeze, don't let Helen tell on Nikki to Bodybags. She's not exactly innocent herself, after all she didn't tell the police about Nikki's escape back in the day!

Poor Nikki, hopefully Helen won't say anything when she sees Bodybag. Great update, Thanks :)

Oh, don't let Helen get beat up! Hurry Nikki! I can't wait to see what happens next...

Meanwhile, Nikki is coming down the lift. She is frantic with worry. She is sweating and panting, worried about going back to jail if Bodybag confirms that it was Nikki once Helen tells her.

The two chavs stand over Helen...

"Handbag!! Give it now or you wont get hurt" said one hoodie.
"Yes, I am sure you dont like hospital food now" said the other one.
"No. I wont, now let me past" said Helen.

The two hoodies grab her and as one pushes her against the side of the car, the other one starts yanking her handbag. One of the hoodies clenches his fist and is about to thump Helen but is whacked in the back of the head by none other than....Nikki.
"Oiiiiiii. You stupid bastards!!!!" shouted Nikki.

Nikki then grapples with the other hoodie, punches him in the face then kicks him in the shins before kicking the first one where it hurts most. One runs off while the other is rithing around in agony on the ground clutching his privates. But then one of the witnesses pounces on him and pins him to the ground. Nikki calls after the other hoodie.

"Oiiiii!! Come back. Baaasssstttttaaaarrrrrdddd piece of ****" called Nikki.

Nikki grabs Helen by the hand and drags her away from the scene. She cuddles her tightly. She shouts to a few passers by to call the police but one has already done so.

"Thank you Nikki. Thanks. They were going to take my handbag" said Helen.
"Dont worry I am here now. Sit on the bench over here" said Nikki.

Nikki walks Helen over to the bench and sits her down on it. A man walks up to them.

"I have called the police. Are you alright love?" said the man.
"She'll be OK sir" said Nikki.
"Dont worry, I know the father of one of those chavs. He is also sick of his sons antics since his mother walked out on them. They live just off the Whitechapel Road" said the man.

He walks over to where the other man is pinning the hoodie to the ground.

"I am so grateful Nikki. I love you. I cannot do it, I cannot grass you up to Bodybag, not after this." said Helen.
"It hurts me that you were going to" replied Nikki.
"I was shocked and not thinking straight. Yes, she only had a sprained neck and I am aghast that you did it but Atkins was involved, and no one ever liked Bodybag anyway. I cannot tell her, and land the woman I love in hot water again. Bingo halls are crying out for lonely women and I hate bingo" said Helen.
"Thanks Helen. Now, try not to talk too much. You have had a shock. The police are on their way, and so is the ambulance to check you over" said Nikki.

Nikki cuddles Helen.

THAT EVENING. THEIR APARTMENT.

A police officer has called round to tell Helen about the muggers.

"The one that ran off was later caught. Once we had his description from you two and the witnesses, he was caught boarding a tube at Algate station. They are both in custody now." said the policeman.
"Oh that is great. Thanks officer" said Helen.
"Yes, thanks sir" replied Nikki.
"Is there anything else I can do for you?" said the policeman.
"No, no thanks. That will be all" said Helen.
"I'll leave you to it then" said the policeman.

The police officer exits through the front door.

"Phew" said Nikki.
"Yes, thanks again love. Now, no more secrets Nikki, no more arguments. Yes, we might bicker but that is normal. But if you do put one foot out of line or have any more confessions, I wont tell on you but it will be over between us. Promise me?" said Helen.
"I swear on my life" said Nikki.
"Good" replied Helen.
"Phew" said Nikki.
"Yes, Bodybag cannot get hold of us, as I rang her from a pub phone and witheld the number. She is probably still waiting at the station. Ha. Ha. She cannot trace where the call came from so she cannot get our home address. If she ever did, I'd say it was Atkins and that is what I was going to say to her when we were going to meet. She is not that intelligent so would take my word for it. But, do not ever do anything like that again Nikki" said Helen.
"I wont love. Come on. Lets make a peace offering" said Nikki.
"I love you Nicola Wade" said Helen.

Helen and Nikki embrace each other and snog on the settee. They lay down and within half a minute they are all over each other. They are really passionate.

THE END.

Now, what are your verdicts on my fan fiction story?

If it was good, I am thinking of doing another one involving Nikki and Helen a few years afterwards where there is a love triangle. I might even do one about Fenner's past history.

Ben

I say go for it. This story was excellent. You're definitely a talented writer and I would love to see more from you.

Thanks Jane22. I do also keep up with the accuracy of BG by referring to real scenes from the show and storylines from actual BG episodes, even lines.

Go for it Ben, Triangle sounds great. :bicycle :bicycle

Yeah, do a new one Ben. You really got me scared and intrigued at the same time. That's what makes a great author.

As for Fenner, that would be a great idea. I remember when I was younger I would read Prisoner Cell Block H, and wonder why Vera Bennett aka Vinegar Tits was always so nasty now I understand why.

She was bitter because she didn't have a life outside of Wentworth always taking care of her Mum like Di Barker did.

Great story. Always nice to have a new writer share their work with us. Looking forward to your next offering ASAP. :hug

Great Story! :clap Thanks
I would like to see another story by you, maybe a love triangle one :innocent

Thanks for the praise and comments. If the mods want to archive this story then I will be more than happy to have it in the Completed Fan Fiction one.

Yes, I would like to do a love triangle one.

The Fenner one will be good because as yet, I have not come across any references to his early background at all. Just he was James Graham Fenner born c1958 as he died in 2005 aged 47.

Ben

Ben

great story Ben! You should definitely write another one.
thanx again.