first let me say that I'm completly twisted and have been since birth!

for me it was a film, a movie called The Vampire Lover's. the gorgeous Ingrid Pitt was the star, I saw it when I was 6. couldn't help but be snarkily delighted when I found out it originally came out the year I was born! it was one, little,sequence that opened my eyes to the world that women could want other women. I refer to when Carmilla came to the pretty blond lady on the bed. she hesitated, momentarily, before sinking her fangs into that woman. and, for me, in that hesitation, I couldn't help wondering if she was going to bite or, instead, kiss the blond senseless.
:lol1 , that's just me in a nut shell!
right, who's next?
Tina

CJ and Abby on LA Law. I was 14, and it's the reason I started watching the show. I didn't know I was a lesbian at that point, but I was VERY interested to see things develop between these two. Gee, I wonder why? I was SOOOO frustrated when Abby decided she wanted to be with CJ and CJ told her she wasn't interested! It was my first experience of US tv networks and the lesbian tease plotline, but definitely not my last.

i can't remember how old i was. but pre-puberty i'd guess. there was a movie on tv with glynis johns (anybody else remember her?) and i think fred mcmurray played her husband. anyway, the scene was where she was wearing something very low cut (i think it was a negligee type thing) and she looked up at him with a certain look in her eyes. i can only think this was a fairly innocent movie if it had fred mcmurray in it. but anyway, i was captivated by her.

If I'm honest, I’m still questioning who I am exactly...but I remember the show that I was like, hmmm, ‘why do I think that woman is sexy’ moment? Peak Practice, a truly outdated English programme about a group of doctors in the Yorkshire moors, with Amanda Burton. She went on to play the lead in silent witness. Not even sure what the attraction is either...its one of those, well you wouldn't kick her out of bed things I think lol. Surprisingly our friend Eva Pope (Francis Myers) also starred in the show at some point, although I have only just made this connection.
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Tricky question really....I don't really watch that much television and didn't exactly come to terms with my sexuality til very recently so i guess it was Bad Girls that got the ball rolling.

Short Story: Sailor Moon. Michiru & Haruka defiitely win people over to admiring and appreciating the depth of their love, as do Nikki & Helen. However, I didn't actually get a clue that anything was up, until I was role-playing Haruka & Michiru wasn't playing her role right and Haruka ended up having an affair with Makoto, which led to me and the girl who played her, hooking up (my first love).

Long Story:

I lived a fairly sheltered in some ways (not enough in other ways) childhood. I didn't realize there were gay people until middle school.

I had been exposed to the concept, because before then a cousin had shown me some porn mag, which had pictures of girls with girls, among other things. Regardless, it didn't register in my thick/naive/innocent brain these girls weren't just naked and posed for the sexual entertainment of a man, but actually involved in sexual activity with one another for the reader's entertainment.

Anyways, in middle school I learned there were gay people. I don't remember if someone told me, if there was a conversation or I saw a gay couple. I would assume that it must not have been someone derogatorily slandering someone, because my first reaction was extremely calm, as if someone had just told me that there were different kinds of stars, like red dwarfs and such. It was just another fact of life. Which makes sense, because if I even know homosexuality, etc. exists, how am I going to know people are fearful and prejudiced against it? It didn't occur to me that people were normally hiding it or I just wasn't very observant.

What I do remember, is that when I learned that people could be attracted to someone of the same gender, I ran a mental list of images of actresses, I considered to be "sexy" or beautiful through my mind and concluded they didn't turn me on. I think it'd be interesting if I had wrote the list down, because I can't remember who the hell was on the list and I'm curious if they are people that I'd consider to be sexy now. Of course, there were and are actresses that I admire, think are beautiful, but I have more of an I would want to be them or know than than shag them. For example, I think Kate Mulgrew is fantastic, but I wouldn't want to go there. The other important thing about this, is they were all women I don't know. Kate is just an example, she wasn't on the list, because Voyager didn't exist then.

I definitely know however what led to my turning point and realization about my own sexuality. I get embaressed about this, but it was Sailor Moon, Bishoujo Senshi Sera Mun, lol. I'd always dismissed the show as lame girly fluff, without having seen it. I started taping it for my sister & decided to be nice and cut commercials and got hooked on the series. Given how horrible the dubs are compared to the original uncut series, it just goes to say how good it is. Anyways, later in the seasons of the show, there is Sailor Neptune & Sailor Uranus. Now, when I was watching the show, I just was impressed with the strength of the love between the two characters and considered them to be cool. The realization came later.

My favorite Sailor, was Sailor Venus and I was really enthralled with the show and I decided to go role play. Where I went Sailor Venus was taken, so as I was picking through the characters, I decided I was going to role play either Sailor Uranus, because she wasn't anything like me, so that would make her role more challenging for me to write and would help me grow as a writer and expand my thinking. Anyways, as you can tell from my short story, it opened up more than just my ability to fake it.

I'd also like to mention, that before I came to my own revelation, two fictional characters I identified with from two of my favorite television shows had become lesbians: Gabrielle (Xena) & Willow (BTVS). Although, I have to laugh, because at the time my reaction was WHAT THE F?! I had been upset, because at the time I felt like I was relating to those characters less, than I had.

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Oh yea, I've been wondering for while - shouldn't this thread be moved out of the straight place and into the Lesbian and Gay one?

SARAH MICHELLE GELLAR - CRUEL INTENTIONS

Can anybody say HOT STUFF ?

So yeah, I was rauted till I saw a pic of Sarah and Selma in a magazine macking, I was about 20 at the time and didn't even know such goings on (I knew about gay guys but didn't realise it went for women too) I know I'm a slow.

I've caught up since tho...

I love the thought of Buffy getting it on with Willow... Marissa and Alex making out.. mmm Spencer and Ashley getting their groove on and most recently I've enjoyed Helen and Nikki steaming up my viewing.

Yeah, mine was the Pink Power Ranger. God, I was like maybe five or six. I definitely wanted her to get with the Yellow Power Ranger chicka, and be "boyfriend and girlfriend". Haha yeah I so got yelled at by my parents for uttering that statement. So instead I just imagined her with me, starting a family, haha. Scares me slightly, looking back.

But as for actual lesbian content, I'd say it was catching an episode of Queer as Folk [the American one] that finally made me go "Whoa. Okay. I'm so gay". And I was about 13 then. Took damn long enough I'd say.

well I remebr the first crush I had was on Julianna Marguilles back when ER first came on...I was like 6 I think...but the first lesbian content I ever watched was High Art I think...but that was a bit depressing so I moved on to The L Word. That was when I couldn't deny I was turned on by girl on girl action.

I remember the Pink Power Ranger too...although I only watched like one episode, just wasn't my thing...I thought she was pretty cute!

Hmmm, great question. I was very involved in a Baptist church growing up. My parents didn't attend, so it was my thing. I didn't have any idea of my own sexuality until college and I certainly didn't deal with it then. I am still finding my comfort zone. I was home for Christmas and hanging with my old group of church friends. Some of their new friends from their colleges were there. A girl I barely knew, Holly, sat near me on the floor while we were watching some movies. She was incredibly beautiful with long light brown hair and green eyes. I layed down on the floor and she patted her leg for me to rest my head on so I would be more comfortable. She kept playing with my hair and brushing it with her fingers. It was making me crazy. I went to the kitchen and she followed me. She kissed me sweetly. I said something highly intelligent like, "I can't." I don't remember exactly. She smiled at me. We went back to the movie, my head returned to her lap and after that night I never saw her again. I was so determined to be the perfect Southern Baptist girl, find a good husband and raise a family in the church that I tried to put her and what it meant out of my head.

I ended up leaving the church because of the hypocrisy that I saw there. I made a whole new group of friends who taught me that it was okay to be whomever I wanted to be. Once I had that thought in my head, I realized that I had ALWAYS been attracted to girls. I think my first girl crush was on Jane Badler, who starred in that HORRIBLE television show, V. A HUGE crush on Cher lasted through middle school and then one on Deidre Hall when I was in early high school. (What the hell???) Throughout all this, I got constant crushes on church camp leaders and such. Then I saw Hackers my senior year of high school and Angelina's lips made me want to cry.

So, now I have identified as bisexual for the last 8 years, I guess. I moved up north two years ago. I am now at the point where I think I am a lesbian. I have actually hit this realization in the last few weeks. I am more comfortable in my own skin than I have ever been.


So, that's me :rofl

Hi NYCBadGirl, thank you for sharing that. I'm glad you're feeling comfortable in your skin--it's one of the most wonderful feelings in the world I think. And welcome to the board as well!

Hey babe, glad you shared...man the Southern Baptist thing can be such a pain in the arse!

Glad to know I wasn't the only one who had a crush Deidre Hall...:)

I'm about where you are...I've identified as bisexual...but I do find myself more attracted to women...and most of my friends have told me "dude, you are so gay! When are you going to realize it?!"

Eh whatever, I'm still hesitant to lose the bisexual label, there are some guys out there I wouldn't mind...Brandon Boyd (mmmm...yummy!), Hayden Christensen, Harison Ford, Josh Hartnett...okay so they're all celebs, it still counts, right? lol

Well, I certainly wouldn't kick Brad or Angelina out of bed. :lol1

And thanks for the welcome.

I am Amber, btw.

You can be a lesbian and still have guys you wouldn't kick out of bed. I have a few myself, and even went through a period where I dated them in real life. So don't feel like dropping the bisexual label means you can't ever feel attracted to a guy.

Hi Everyone...

It has been a long time since I have posted here so what better thread to jump back in.

Some of your posts above bring back memories for me. Did someone say Deidre Hall? However, I must say her role which er, rocked my world was in "Electra Woman and Dyna Girl." LOL What can I say, I knew I liked superwomen at a young age. Around the same time I also had crushes on Wonder Woman, Lynda Carter, and the Bionic Woman, Lindsey Wagner. Notice the theme? :-)

Of course, who could forget the 80s with Amanda Donohoe as CJ on L.A. Law. That was the time that I was seriously starting to wonder who I was and why I felt "different."

Yes, I too, was a clueless pup, and was in love with her best friend. I had feelings but didn't understand them nor know how to categorize them.

My senior year in HS, a close friend of mine died suddenly, and my other friend came over to comfort me (the one above). I just remember her holding me and stroking my hair and face. As sad and upset as I was for not being able to say "goodbye" all I wanted to do was kiss her.

Yeah, well that never happened. In fact, less than 6 weeks later she just stopped talking to me with no explanation. Looking back it could have been that she felt the same way but was Indian (as in from India) and had an arranged marriage and nothing could have ever happened. <sigh>

Enough of me. And thanks for taking me back down Memory Lane.

Welcome NYCBadGirl! Are you in NYC now? I am and have been looking for other fellow BG fans here.

Hmmm...that's a tough one. I'm sure the Children's Hour with Audrey Hepburn was my first. It's the first time I remember thinking there was something special about her. I didn't have my first romantic encounter with a woman though until I was in college--my english professor. The movie I remember touching me at that time was Henry and June. :)