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| “I don't doubt that he has been keeping you busy. Probably with cocaine or something just as bad.” That was just the reply she’d expected. In fact, it was the reply she wanted. But coupled with Zach’s piercing gaze, she was uncomfortable. She could tell that she’d hurt him. She had gotten exactly what she wanted. The girl didn’t feel very victorious, though. In all honesty, she felt like a piece of shit. The way his face fell made her want to take it all back. So maybe she did feel that he’d ignored her after she made one mistake. Okay, so the mistake had probably been a huge one in Zach’s eyes. Lily hadn’t been able to stay away from Jamison, though. A part of her thought she might even love Jamie, but Lily wasn’t all too sure if she loved just Jamie, or just his drugs. Ripped from her thoughts, she looked over at Zach when he placed his empty glass down hard on the wood counter. Now Zach was pissed. He might even be more than pissed. Brows furrowing when he said that he was the worst friend ever, she watched him slide off of his bar stool and stood in front of her. Glancing up to look Zach in the eyes, she bit down on her bottom lip, hard. She didn’t like seeing her best friend this angry – and at her, nonetheless. Once Zach started speaking, though, she couldn’t stand to look into his eyes. Staring down at the brown beer bottle clasped in her hand, she wished she could disappear. She just knew they had attracted the attention of everyone near the bar. She hated feeling people’s eyes on her. No doubt they would recognize either her or Zach, and then the news of her being involved with drugs would spread. Even if all the toxins Jamie provided her with helped her, she still didn’t want people thinking they could look down on her. Looking up at Zach again, she nodded when he asked if she wanted to know why he had ignored her, before draining her third beer. Even if it had been a rhetorical question, Lily still felt like she should at least offer up some sort of answer. When he continued with his answer, she immediately wanted to just run away. Lily didn’t want to hear that sort of thing. The girl would much rather believe that those things only happened to other people, not herself. That idea was too terrible to even accept. Overdoses didn’t happen to people like her. She had a good life. Overdoses only happened to brainless people with screwed up lives. That wasn’t the biggest blow, though. When her most-likely-no-longer-best-friend told her that he was giving up trying to help her was the biggest blow. In fact, if Lily was a more dramatic person (and was in a move) she would probably place a hand over her forehead and faint. Instead she just felt sick. Instead she just stared after Zach as he walked away from her. Instead she just bit down on her bottom lip, this time to keep from crying. Glancing around the room, Lily tried to focus on what she thought was the door. She couldn’t be certain, though. And then there was the fact that everything seemed to jumping around unsteadily. Placing her elbows on her knees, Lily leaned forward and stared down at the ground as a sour taste began to itch at the back of her throat. What was wrong with her? Why did she feel so… broken? "Zach! Wait!" Slapping a twenty dollar bill on the counter for her beers, Lily hurriedly pushed through the thick crew towards the exit. She needed to get out of there. Wiping a bead of sweat from her forehead, the woman broke through the crowd and stumbled out onto the sidewalk. The frosty air did little to sober her up. Instead, it brought the bile up quicker. Collapsing to her knees, she - for lack of a better phrase – ridded her stomach of its contents. Pushing the brown hair that had plastered itself to her cheeks, Lily shoved herself to her feet and staggered a few steps towards the parking lot. Tripping over the curb was what finally made her lose it. Palms catching her on the rough concrete, the alcohol finally took complete control of the college student as the tears began to course down her cheeks. The one night she’d actually worn mascara, she ended up crying for the first time in four years. What were the chances? Choking back a sob, Lily made her way towards the white truck she was positive belonged to her. When, after the fourth try, her key didn’t fit, she knew the truck wasn’t hers. Swiping at the steady stream of tears, Lily stumbled down the row of cars. Where was her car? Why were there so many god damned white trucks? And why was it so fucking cold? After trying her key in the third truck, she finally gave up trying to stop herself from crying. Her life was shit. She was stranded in the parking lot of a Club Level. She was drunk. And, after leaning over next to a small, blue car, she was sick and emptying her empty stomach for the second time. |