Opposing enemy sides and venom leaking down our throats is considered the exquisite form of living.
Though I do not agree, I am still going through with it.
It hurts to watch, it burns to feel.
I can't help to call this my own fault.
I made this happen, they say. I am an awful person, they say. I am the devil's daughter, they say.
I tune into something else, but nothing can drown the bleakness in their voices.
I want to fall and hit a surface, hard. Hard enough to break my face and leave me petrified. Better yet, dead.
I know their feelings may be hurt, but shortly after they'll fade away.
Because without me, you see, they vanish.
Why this makes no sense, you'll think I'm absurd.
But they come from my head, my dreams, my thoughts; an imagination became an abomination.
I am free to go once I have parished.
Soon their pace is caught to mine, and they travel whereas I go.
It's life threatening, I can tell you for sure.
And though I am passionate and quite frankly strange, they stay by my side,
Because I tell them to; they're hideous and beautiful,
At the same time; I'm being hit hard with pains and bruises,
Of fear and physical impacts; I'm basically being traumatized by myself.
The flow of life is impossible to keep steady.
For it changes in a cycle not even God himself knows how it flows.
How unsteady my flow has been these days, I'm never alone; not entirely.
How much I wish I wasn't so naive. So stupid and selfish.
I wish I were gone; not quite dead, preferably not alive.

Very nice. I love the uber free verse thing. Long lines, short lines, no rhyming. I respect it. :3 Considering I sometimes do it myself.
Make sure, though, when you do this, that it doesn't just sound like you're writing a note to a friend or a paragraph for English class or whatever. the way to do this is to read it back to yourself a few times and make sure all the words roll of the tongue easily. Another way is giving it a rhythm. Like iambic pentameter, which is the most common.

do daaa do daaa do daaa.

But I love, love, love the first line. It's a great first line. It throws everything out there.
And the last line mentions a parallel state, which is kind of neat. :3
A state where's your not really on the planet, but not dead. Like a dream. I like it.

Anyways. good job. ^^ Keep writing.