Well, I am still teary, down. It takes a lot for me to call my doctor. I did today. I even called to see if they got the message; which they did. They probably don't know what to do with me and my TRD. I waited, and no phone call back. So I am pissed off!! I am just as important as any other patient dammit! I feel like calling and leaving a nasty message, as I was not called back! I don't call hardly at all. I waited and waited for nothing. Damed doctor! I guess now I feeling sorry for myself and angry that I was not called back! I feel like raising HELL with them tomorrow; which I may do. I have taken 1 1/2 Xanax and my night drugs. I may take something for sleep as I am pissed off. I have bumped my Seroquel up to 300mg tonight. Well, I am nurse I guess I will take care of myself since the damned doctor won't!! I guess I am not important enough as a person. So the HELL with her. I guess I have to be suicidal before anyone will call me back. Those patients come first. Well, tomorrow I will tell the damed bitch what I took, since she didn't call me back!!!!!! Maybe I will call my doctor that does the VNS ask her if she has any ideas, even though she doesn't do medications for depression usually. I think I will take a sleeping pill tonight. It after 1000. I am just angry, as the one time I call and want to get a call back, I don't. It just pisses me off. I am just angry that I was not called the one time I asked to be. I'm just venting here. And I don't know if any medicine would help anyway with this TRD. I wish this VNS would kick in SOON.
It is cold, snowy 18 degrees. I would like to sleep and not wake up until spring.
Sincerely,
Bonnie :Help: :skull: :Violent: :So Sad:

Soory that today was a bad day for you. Maybe they were just busy and will call you in the morning. i hope so. I also hope that tomorrow will be a better day for you. Hugs, Fay

Thank you Faye, for writing me back. Today is Thursday and she did call me back yesterday. She wants me to take 400mg of the Seroquel every night. That is what I thought she would say. So I guess I will. I did last night, I am so very dry. So I will try to drink more fluids. At first, I wanted to just take Seroquel as a standby but it doesn't work out that way. You have to take it on a regular basis. :FYI: I was irritated yesterday as we had 3-5 inches of snow. I had to shovel the driveway. I was outside for three hours. Thank God there is no more in the forecast for awhile. It has been cold with a temperature of 5 degrees with the windchill factor. I live in Western Maryland. So I got my exercise yesterday. I am already sick of the cold & snow. It's pretty, I just hate shoveling it.
Hope your son is holding his own. School has been closed for two days now. I am sore from shoveling. I wonder how many calories is used for that activity? :kicking:
Sincerely,
Bonnie :huh:

I feel sure a lot of calories are burned when you shovel a driveway.

I hope you are feeling better today.

Hi Bonnie,

Sounds like you got a good workout today with all that shoveling. And thinking about how many calories that burnt off is a great way of looking at that task, that is how I do it when it hits here.

Glad to hear the doctor called you back and gave you some positive feedback on your meds. Keep pushing those fluids, so many meds dry you out big time.

Hope things get better for you soon. Take care and just imagine how thin you will by the time winter is over!!! :Great!:

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Thank You :Thanx: Gel & Labrat for writing me back, Faye too. We were supposed to have an ice storm this AM but didn't. Well, I can't shovel that. I have an ice chipper. A metal straight blade on wood. It is for breaking up thick ice. That is worse than shoveling snow. I haven't had to do that yet. I am feeling better, just dry. My eyes feel dry; that really bugs me. I am still sore; but I expected that. I took Motrin last night. School was back in session today. My son was glad as he was off for two days. Well, I better get dressed and put the mail out. Hopefully I won't slip out there. We use cat litter on the sidewalk and driveway when it is slippery for traction. It works well. At least it is getting above freezing the next couple of days. I need to go out. Santa isn't done yet for Christmas yet this year.
Sincerely,
Bonnie : xmas :

We see snow once in a blue moon. We enjoy it when we do get some, but I wouldn't won't to live with it. All ice does is pull the power poles down. We have underground wiring in our neighborhood, but the main one up above us doesn't, it has poles and they control our power.

I hope you are feeling better!

It snows in Vegas every once in a while but doesn't stick. I've only seen real snow once. I tagged along on a hunting trip of my dad's at Thanksgiving to Pennsylvania. We went to Valley Forge to see one of his brothers and Altoona where I an related to about half the residents there! The snow was about waist deep and when we went jet skiing the drifts were over our heads. Made my first snowman at age 18. I can't image having to shovel that all the time!