The Lapse

Together we were wonderful
We were full of love and rapture
Yet something changed, nothing to you
I felt myself slipping into an endless crevice
The light at the end of my tunnel was dissipating

I stayed with you for I knew you needed my comfort
Yet, at the same time, I found another
Spreading propaganda and deceiving to get my way
You both believed me, dangling on every word I uttered
I was ecstatic, my conscience completely ignored

I was constantly on watch, yet still I stuck it out
I contemplated every aspect of both relationships
Making sure it would slip into the night
I once almost slipped-up but thankfully I caught myself

Yet when one door opens and it’s full of light
The darkness, which follows comes swiftly after
I made another mistake, perhaps
Maybe it was another watchful eye, either way…

The next short while…Felt like an eternity indeed
Through my ears traveled screams of infidelities
Verbal abuse was a constant routine
The Physical abuse was held back, silently

Apologies got me nowhere
All I could do was avoid and live in solitude
I lived in a hotel now, far away from both
Yet, my conscience back again, close enough to repent

How could things get worse?
My lies, revealed, my world destroyed
Yet nothing so worse it couldn’t be mended
But, sadly, everything so bad that it couldn’t be forgotten

I must work a lifetime now
To do right those I have forever wronged
I have lost my love, and forsaken the life of another
One simple mistake will forever hang over my head

~A good friend Aubrey Litchfield submitted the title of this particular poem. She is always helping me out in one-way or another~

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