everyday when I wake up, i say to myself

"its a new day time to mature"

well, i might not say that everyday but subconsciencely i do.

I go through the days now just think about life, wondering where I'm head when i grow up, do i hang around the right friends, am I a good influence on the people around me,etc.

These things bother me everyday. When I'm in class and I see my friends goofin off i think to myself, "will these days last forever? Will we ever be at war with one another? Will we ever be split apart?"

I normally hate thinking about those things because me makes me depressed. Not emo depressed but just sad that the future can turn out crappy. when i look at my brothers i wonder, "will they grow up to be stupid, illiterate hoodlums, Will they become more mature then me? will they revolutionize the world?" all these questians plague me everyday. I'm not even sure if its normal for a 14 year old to be thinking about this kind of stuff. Unlike most of my friends, i dont really care about the girls, ass and boobs (although I have a Girl friend), but rather will I become the person i want to be? Will I become a failure?

I dont understand why i feel like this but i hope its normal. I'm normally reserved about my inner thoughts and put on a random, comical front but my thoughts torment me when I'm not being social. anyway, anything you old wiser people have to say to me.

(dont say anything about my grammer or spelling. I'm writing how I feel so fuck it)

I'm not 14, I'll admit that. I'm 16, but I feel the exact same way. I tend to think like that in school, especially when people are bragging about how drunk they got the Friday before.

I actually don't think everyone thinks like this. Well, everyone probably does from time to time, but I'd say only the intellectuals think about it more than once.

16 here too. Myself...I think life in general kinda sucks. At least...the risks assosiated do. I've never ever woken up confident that my day was going to go exactly as planed because it's failed so many times before there's no hope in it. I'm not saying I don't have good days. Just that the amount of completely average and bad days beats them by a landslide.

I don't really worry about the future. I worry about getting through school. >_>;

I don't really think about the future. Only when I'm alone, or sleepy.
Most of the time I just let whatever happens happen, and I don't worry about it.

Valter! High-five!

(Puff is 16)... Yeahh, mainly, like Valter, I let whatever happens happen.
I don't really think about the future unless it's "will I finish high school?" "Will I get into college?" "Will I get to meet all/most of you someday?" Yada, yada.
About the friend conundrum(sp?), I lost a lot of friends while I was younger (because my dad is a douche), so I try to treasure the ones I have now, until they're gone. Example: Danielle and I were good friends since last school year (she's a year younger), but recently something has been occuring that's making us grow distant... Now, this is going to sound stupid, but, I hope the distance doesn't get so big that we can't build a bridge back to eachother. I love her to death, and she can always put a smile on my face in school; I wish this situation didn't occur, but it was inevitable. :/

I believe I had something else to say in the matter of dwelling on the future, but I don't remember at the moment...
I remember!... Yeah so, I'm against this whole idea that "You're a teenager now. You have to act more mature!" Hmph. Screw that. Just because we're "teenagers" we have to act grown-up? Or just because we're teens, we have to change who we are so that the "adults" will like us? Hell, they're going to die soon anyway; what's the point? But I'm not completely insensitive, I dig that there ARE some situations where people--teenagers and the like--SHOULD act mature and not like complete 3 year olds.

Yeahhh... There's my 4 cents..

Yeah, Leon, that's entirely normal. Everyone thinks like that sometimes, whether they care to admit it or not. I often wonder about my generation. I see how stupid kids are being raised these days, and I wonder, what is this generation going to amount to? Are we all gonna grow up to be a bunch of lazy, spoiled good-for-nothings... Are we somehow gonna change the world, is there really going to be a revolution? That kind of stuff. I myself hope there's some sort of revolution... but there has to be a revolution of the mind before there's a revolution of the world...