ok here goes

ok.. last nite i was in the hot boyz forum.. im not gonna get into it, because im that upset... john (yes the real one, who showed legit proof) was extremely rude to me and blocked me.. meanwhile there were girls in there talking about riding him and shit and he was ok with them.. like i said, it WAS the real john.. im not lying.it upset me that he was that ignorant to fans. And yes, ill say it again.. it WAS him.. well... it jus made me that pissed off, that im just lettin go.. im never watching the show again and i dont think ill finish my fanfics.. id also like to tell everyone the truth about me... as if u guys even care... but i was a fan so i pretended to be just an average girl like the rest of u guys.. so here goes.... Everything about me is true except for one thing... im 8 months pregnant wit a lil boy,due february 25th. I know yall think im a slut, so just go ahead and think that. I know, im 19 and i know its just a terrible thing and i should be "damned to hell" but im sorry yall.. i just didnt want everyone knowing my life story... I know yall will never think of me the same way again.. specially julz.. the first girl that ever befriended me on here.. i told u bullshit so u wouldnt stop talking to me.. because i considered u a good friend. Mandy was the first person i told because she was in the chat wit me..and the only person i could let myself out to.

I know no one will speak to me again, so i thank all ya girls for being so great to me on here... You were like family to me, even if i said something to piss u off or other way around. Mandy thanks for accepting it.. i dont know how anyone else will take it... but thanks everyone for ya time.. ill still guest in here and read your fan fics... But i just had to be honest, because john made me feel so inadequate that i didnt feel like i needed to hide anything.... so i thought id just be truthful (finally).. sorry for making yall disgusted...

please dont say shit like "u dont know it was him" or "yea right john a sweetheart" well.. i dunno then.. it ruined my nite so i thought id jus let it out.. theres only SO much one person can hold inside their heart THAT long

finally take care everyone.. thanks for tha fun times on here.. it brightened me up when i went through a hard time in my life...so i guess i can quit being ashamed about braydon and put my pics in picture trail finally.. God bless everyone :hmm:

This post has been edited by mzbabyphat on Jan 2 2005, 11:16 PM

i'd give you karma for your courage if this was the hottiegotti.com forum. but either way, i'm praising your courage to open up to us. i hope we can still talk on aim! heheh we're like talking to each other right now...

This post has been edited by hottigottigroupi on Jan 2 2005, 10:57 PM

eyy shit happens let it goo and go on wit ur life, i dont think ur a slut and im sure most of the girls dont think ur a slut either, i hope u have a healthy baby boy dat turns out to have a bomb ass personality like urz!!! keep ur head up! and by da way can u tell us wut kinda proof he showed cuz nowa dayz der are a lot of good posers

AWWWWW!
Dude, you've been so awesome, really you're like a star on this board, after that one bitch emailed you and all and you're just so funny!
But man, I would never think your a slut, i mean hell my mom had my bro when she was only 18 but that didnt make her a slut.
Look man, you've got my s/n on aim, if you EVER feel like you need to talk to someone, just IM me cuz I won't mind at all, I'm goin through tough times, too.
Just take it one day at a time, things will eventually get better, and like bellachika said, i hope your baby boy has an awesome personality as you do.
Take care, and I hope you come around the site still.
Mad love <33

i would like to stay on but everyone thinks im a liar now cuz i neva told everyone.. i jus wish i could have a normal life... i know it was my slip up.. im very fertile lol.. but this is proof that birth control and condoms DO NOT ALWAYS WORKKK. cuz i was on birth control and he had a condom.. crazy, isnt it? Hes an asshole though.. I mean id rather be a single mom than deal wit his shit, he proved it on ohio. Hes still a lil boy not grown into his age yet.. but what can ya do? Im just like seriously upset cuz julz like hates me now... i mean i guess the gotti thing rolled off my back... and i suppose ill watch it for laughs.. but as for John, ill never look at him the same way again... i honestly had NO idea he was that vulgar and ignorant. I wouldnt be posting it if that girl didnt tell me inside things and show me things that gave me legit proof.. yes, it sucks.. but i jus think its rude that he talked to to girls who talked about "riding his face" but he wouldnt talk to me, and i was being hyper, yet not making my sexuality the main source of conversation. I guess theres always a side to celebs that well never know.. N yeah ladiiez i got both ya sn so i will def be talkin to u... i dont wanna leave here cuz ill miss this place... and i was SO excited about my new fanfic... but if i think about how messed up he was to me, it isnt worth writing about lol.. oh well.. i dont know what to do... someone give me an answer in all this craziness :sad:

AWWW
I dont know what to say.
That took a lot of courage to say and I respect you for that.
And no I dont think your a slut.
Your always welcome here if you need anything.
Goodluck with the baby!

thanks.. its next month already.. im down to every other week appointments.i have one wednesday..and i have a bpp.. so ill be sitting in the hospital allll day long.. wow.. fun times.. if i stick around and jus observe would yall hate me?

no way in hell would any of us think you are a slut.. after you were out in the open like that i give you even more respect.. i dont feel like you lied to us, thats something hard to tell complete strangers, but i still feel close to ya..like you said we're a family
i know sh*t happens and i dont think any different of you.. and ill be upset if you left..
youre one of the best people on here and very easy to like.. and i have to say, i want to keep in touch with you because youre someone i like being around.. my SN is JOhNgOtTixO <[ironic huh?] if ya still wanna talk..

im sorry about anything thats happened to you but i know youre an awesome person and you will be a great mother. no worries there

lots of <3

not at all, go right ahead

if you think any of us are gonna stop talking to you just cause you`re preggy you`re insane! lol. now if it was some jerry springer thing like you`re sleeping with a transvestite protitute...then i`d never talk to you again rofl. but for being preggy pssh that doesn`t make you a slut & whoever thinks it makes you a slut i will personally b*tch slap them. lol.


`.Melissa

haha ahh i love ya girl! lol! no trannys.. my ex is a freak though.. crazy ass white boy.. lol... Julz hates me now though, thats what hurts me the most :unsure:

my other dilemma is the fact that i dont wanna do hair anymore.. i cry everyday i work.. i want NOTHING to do wit it.. but the place i applied for hasnt called me yet... i dont wanna be there.. i just wanna quit but i dont have another job lined up... its just.. like too much... is crazy.. i tell people my "secret" and im about to pop anyhow lol.. im hugeee.. i hate it..

This post has been edited by mzbabyphat on Jan 3 2005, 09:08 AM

yoo gurly if you think were gunna stop talking to you cuz
your preg. ur crazy. stuff happens nd like italianbella said i have
alot of respect for you cuz you came out and said it and
about JOHN..

i dont even think anything of him anymore either hes like
all the fkn guys cuz wen omar was saying how he gets MADD
HEADD FROM GURLS HE MEETS AT CLUBS i was like ..wow sounds
like every other piece of shyt guy ..i think nothing of him i still
say hes still hott but hes a fkn dick like every other dude ..just cuz
he seems diff on TV ..its the same kinda dude as the rest
doing the same shyt ..like he think hes such hot shyt i`d like
to slap him up a couple times ..dickkk wen omar was in the chat
he was like yea johns lookin at himself in the mirror ..i was like WOWW
fkn cocky loser

but no gurl you have my SN you can talk to me wenever
your a great person and your really nice i dunno y julz
wuld hate you thts not rite ..but i`ll talk to u wenever
you wanna its all good

JOHN = PU**Y obbssessed cocky mofo

Oh wow! :o ¡Ah mi bondad! ningún manera!

This post has been edited by Mrs_John_GOTTI on Jan 3 2005, 12:18 PM

awwwwwww girl i give u much respect for comin on here and
doin that!..it musta took alotta courage..& i kno we didnt talk that much
but from what i read & ish it seems ur a really nice girl!!!
I FORBID U TO LEAVE THIS BOARD..U GOTTA COME BACK
we're all gonna miss yaaa!..& im sure everyone wants
u to stay..& not jsut to observe..but to post.. no ones gonna
think of u differently..well atleast i wont!!!...& ya might
be busy with the baby..but u still gotta come on here and postt!
it wont be the same without you! but awwww i wish u & ur baby..
& ur family all the best! :D ..and when the baby comes u gotta
post some pics up on here for us to see!!..do u kno if its a girl
or a boyyy!?

omgosh no! even tho i`m new i really give u lots of respect for doin wat u did .. i would love to get to kno the girl who everyone knows nd luvss .. ;)